Hi
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Its raining here right now. Why am I not sleepy today. I should be napping now like every other day. Tons of assignments yet to be done. I'll let all the paper pile up till the ceiling first, only then I'll start doing it slowy. Everything's doing fine. Been busy with school and work. Juggling school and work aint that hard coz I'm working on Saturdays only for now. What's hard is not being able to meet the bf as often as before. He's so busy with work and I'm so busy with school. We make an effort to atleast meet up once a week. Im not use to not spending lots and lots of time with bf. I feel so unloved. Sigh. Sedih nye. I don't feel like updating my blog actually. So ya.. Bye.
Like a dungeon dragon
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Karaoke-ed with the guys today. Mission to stay home today: Failed terribly. Gonna collect my i/c tmr. Yey. Like finally after 5yrs of not having an i/c, im gonna have one tmr. I lost my i/c when I was 15. Thats like almost 6yrs right? Cb my i/c photo confirm fat face. Babi mkn taik la. Who cares. Okay mandi time. MacDelivery will be reaching in 60mins time. Nites.
Been there done that
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He's at that age where friends are the most important in his life. He would die if he doesnt have his friends by his side. Can he survive being alone for just one day? Not meeting his friends just for a day, stay home, just chilling all by himself. I doubt so. "His friends is his world". That sounds like me 3 yrs ago. I'm not sayin that friends are not important but... Come on uh! What the fuck la kau!? Mcm nak cakap je! Nevermind, certain things are best left unsaid. Lets just wait. Time will tell.
That time of the month
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When it comes to that time of the month, every feeling that I feel magnifies. If I'm happy, i'll be really happy I can laugh till I cry. When I'm angry, I will want to just give that person who annoys me a muhd ali punch. And when I'm sad, I'm really really really sad. I cry over small little things. I wont wanna talk when i'm upset. Like right now.
Hi bf, I want you here right now. Why you sleep whole day! Make me sad. Sighhhh.
Like a circus
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Cosmic Gate this Saturday! Anyone? I'm going. Who else is? Its been a while since I last went to Zouk. Looking forward to it. See you guys there.
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I'm writing this..
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Is it even real? I don't know. I guess I'm afraid to let it flow deeper inside. I don't know whether am I being fair. Sometimes you just gotta be a little selfish to survive, right? Whats the reason for having this feelings? Neither me nor you knows the reason why. So how is it possible that it happened? Why do I always have to be so insecure about things? Where's my "fuck everyone. fuck what other people has to say" attitude gone to? I need it in times like this.
When you leave me alone at home..
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I have to turn to the webcam for companion since you're not here and your iphone is dying soon. Ya la Fiyan you're the best ever webcam buddy in the whole wide world. I say that bcoz theres nobody else, right now, who'd crack silly jokes at 3 in the morning just to make me happy.
Anyway, I watched Khurafat today. With bear and his friends. Thanks b for shouting so loud in the cinema and made me jumped off my seat literally. It wasnt even half of the movie yet. I'd totally understand if it was the climax part. But the movie just started like 5mins ago. "Eeee siala b.. Kental pe u!" "I tekejot la nmpak muka! Tsk." Alasan.. Ade je you punya excuse. Overall it was a nice movie. I only shouted once. And that made him shout too. HAHAH! Ok that part kelakar. He shout bcoz i shout. HAHAH! Alasan lagi sekali.
When to Nabins to have late dinner. Then he sent me home at 12.
And so here I am trying to sleep and at the same time waiting for this boy to reach home. I'll sleep now la. Working tmr yaw. Kbye.
Hello black hair
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Act cute lepas mandi. I know, don't have to tell me. I just re-dyed my hair back to black colour and I like my black hair.
Fiyan: Da lama pe tak nmpak kau rambot pure black! Sialaaa kau da mcm bdk sec sch! Kau try gi 7eleven skrng beli rokok, mesti tak lepas! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Me: Kau dabes bilang uh. *off webcam*
You.
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Forget all the reasons why it won't work and believe the one reason why it will.
Hi, I sayang this boy here.
Rebound?
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Don't 'date' someone when you know that you've not gotten over your ex. Its just so unfair for the other party when he/she finds out that he/she is just a rebound. I'm not saying that you can't date that person right after you've got your heart broken by your ex, but please don't confuse yourself. Don't fool yourself by saying that you like him/her when actually you're just trying to occupy yourself with that new someone just to get your mind off your ex.
Ok fine you might say that you're trying to move on. But how is it possible that you like someone new and at the same time you still have feelings for you ex? Yes I know its not easy to just forget bout your ex, but can you please have some humanity? I suppose you're just tryna fool yourself, your own feelings. Let me tell you, its not possible. You can go on and fool the other party but hey, you cant fool yourself.
He/she would really appreciate it if you could atleast tell him/her that you still have some feelings for your ex instead of just keeping it as a secret. And if he/she is okay with it, atleast he/she would gladly help you to move on. That's if he/she doesnt mind.
As for me, I do mind to a certain extent. Bcoz what if one day while helping you to move on, I fall for you? Then thats suppose to be awesome right? Coz you've managed to kill two birds with one stone. You moved on and got yourself a new gf. But what if in the middle of all that, your ex decided to get back with you? Of coz you're happy coz actually in the first place Im just a rebound.
So what's gonna happen to me after that....? I'll let you figure that out yourself.
